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I would dearly love to wish all my flists a Happy Valentines Day and I must do so this evening as those words shall never pass my lips on the actual day.
Though Valentine's Day is meant to be a day to celebrate love it is a day I have hated for the last 20 years and I do not see that sentiment changing.
Instead, I will take time tomorrow to think of Anthony Mathias and Zachary William two sweet boys who never drew their first breath. Twenty years ago I lost my twin boys in the 29th week of pregnancy. It has been so long that most years the day passes with quiet reflection, but the sorrow has faded. This year seems to be different as this year they would have been twenty and I am rapidly reaching double that milestone. I have come to the conclusion that I will never hold an infant in my arms to wonder over the life they have in front of them and it saddens me to think my sons never had the chance to live.
So, Happy Valentine's Day flist and happy birthday to my sweet boys.
Though Valentine's Day is meant to be a day to celebrate love it is a day I have hated for the last 20 years and I do not see that sentiment changing.
Instead, I will take time tomorrow to think of Anthony Mathias and Zachary William two sweet boys who never drew their first breath. Twenty years ago I lost my twin boys in the 29th week of pregnancy. It has been so long that most years the day passes with quiet reflection, but the sorrow has faded. This year seems to be different as this year they would have been twenty and I am rapidly reaching double that milestone. I have come to the conclusion that I will never hold an infant in my arms to wonder over the life they have in front of them and it saddens me to think my sons never had the chance to live.
So, Happy Valentine's Day flist and happy birthday to my sweet boys.