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I am so tired of all the finger pointing and bullshit in life.  I have basically written off my Eagle for the last month plus.  I have not written him though he has sent me one email... lamenting his solitary existence.  Something, I remind you, he brought upon himself.  Then last night he emails me asking a question about events that happened over 3 months before he and the PB were married.  Good God this woman is truly nuts!  She is now trying to convince him that I was attempting to poison her son's mind against him before they were even married.  Gees give me a break!

Now it is time I pat self on back.  The only response I sent him was to reiterate the actual events which occurred and the fact that I would not be the scape goat for the demise of his marriage.

Then he called me!  Not five minutes after I sent the reply.

I have to admit it could have gone better as I did initially lose my temper with him because of previous communication which caused me to write him off.  I do not even appreciate the illusion of being called a whore.  Once I had calmed down I ask him why shit that happened over three years ago was being brought up.  He said he thinks she "needs something to blame".  I explained it was not "something" but someone" she was trying to blame and then once again reiterated I would not be the scape goat.  He actually admitted that I should not be and then the call ended with him telling me he loved me.

The sad thing is though I know I love him too.  I do not think at this juncture I would ever enter a "relationship" with him.  I am trying to hold steady to this resolve because I know at this time it is the best thing for me, but my friends it is hard because I do love him.