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I am so tired of all the finger pointing and bullshit in life. I have basically written off my Eagle for the last month plus. I have not written him though he has sent me one email... lamenting his solitary existence. Something, I remind you, he brought upon himself. Then last night he emails me asking a question about events that happened over 3 months before he and the PB were married. Good God this woman is truly nuts! She is now trying to convince him that I was attempting to poison her son's mind against him before they were even married. Gees give me a break!
Now it is time I pat self on back. The only response I sent him was to reiterate the actual events which occurred and the fact that I would not be the scape goat for the demise of his marriage.
Then he called me! Not five minutes after I sent the reply.
I have to admit it could have gone better as I did initially lose my temper with him because of previous communication which caused me to write him off. I do not even appreciate the illusion of being called a whore. Once I had calmed down I ask him why shit that happened over three years ago was being brought up. He said he thinks she "needs something to blame". I explained it was not "something" but someone" she was trying to blame and then once again reiterated I would not be the scape goat. He actually admitted that I should not be and then the call ended with him telling me he loved me.
The sad thing is though I know I love him too. I do not think at this juncture I would ever enter a "relationship" with him. I am trying to hold steady to this resolve because I know at this time it is the best thing for me, but my friends it is hard because I do love him.
Now it is time I pat self on back. The only response I sent him was to reiterate the actual events which occurred and the fact that I would not be the scape goat for the demise of his marriage.
Then he called me! Not five minutes after I sent the reply.
I have to admit it could have gone better as I did initially lose my temper with him because of previous communication which caused me to write him off. I do not even appreciate the illusion of being called a whore. Once I had calmed down I ask him why shit that happened over three years ago was being brought up. He said he thinks she "needs something to blame". I explained it was not "something" but someone" she was trying to blame and then once again reiterated I would not be the scape goat. He actually admitted that I should not be and then the call ended with him telling me he loved me.
The sad thing is though I know I love him too. I do not think at this juncture I would ever enter a "relationship" with him. I am trying to hold steady to this resolve because I know at this time it is the best thing for me, but my friends it is hard because I do love him.