Oh, honey! What a melancholy day for you. But how wonderful, that after all this time, you still think of your boys and consider them a blessing.

I know exactly what you mean about women who are undeserving of their children. A close friend of mine lost her baby a few years ago, and when she was returning to her car with her husband from the hospital, the women in the car next to theirs had a newborn and a toddler in her car. She was smoking with all the windows shut and screaming at the toddler to 'shut the f*** up'. My friend said it just made her feel so bitter for a time.

You would have made such a wonderful Mom. It is very touching how you wonder what your sons would have been like. I hope you'll feel a little better tomorrow. I'll be thinking of you all day. *hugs and makes you nice cup of tea*